False starts.

Hey there,

I started doing this blog so that I could write about and show my progress with personal art projects and also with job training to advance my skills. I wanted to have something to show for my progress.

Well… sigh. I think that I’ve let life get in the way of art, which is a common theme of my life. I know that the little voice inside of me continually pleads with me to create a painting or even just a drawing but I tend to ignore it and give other general tasks a higher priority. I figure, I’ll get to it eventually.

I have to put my foot down and think of a way to keep making art progress. One suggestion, that I even posted here earlier, was to tell myself that every day I have to draw. Even if it is just one line in my sketchbook. Because if you draw one line, you might feel inspired to keep going until you have to do something else. I have to make creativity as one of my highest priorities!

I like listening to motivational speeches. One I just heard this morning was about how distracted we all can get in this age of social media and entertainment. I’d never heard of Bishop T.D. Jakes before, but he was right- I am letting my distractions get the best of me and squeezing out my own creative ideas and goals. It’s so upsetting to me when I sit and think about how unproductive I’ve been on these last 3 months I’ve had off from work. Granted, I got a lot of house projects done from my never ending list, and maintained a lot of things like dishes and laundry. The best things that have come from this time off, actually, has been the quality time I got to spend with my husband, and joining a crossfit gym together, and also just sitting and reading books and expanding our pretty backyard with plants. I’m so grateful for all of that. Just getting to be home every day is a treasure. I would long to see the daylight at our house sometimes, when I am working those long long hours in crunch time. So this is all a blessing, don’t get me wrong.

But now that I had this wonderful break I must learn to focus on getting back to my highest priority: creating art.

I called this “False Starts” because of all the times this summer I got contacted to go back to work, and then got told that the project got cancelled or went a different direction where they did not need me after all. I’m okay with that because I know I am a good artist and eventually the right job will come along that is perfect for me. But in a way, I’ve also had the best intentions to work on some art for myself during this time but somehow got distracted and never really dedicated time for creativity. Except for that birdhouse that I made because it was a gift for a loved one.

Oh, and I did attempt to do some encaustic paintings a few weeks ago, which is wax mixed with oil paints. I just did a few abstract things that I let melt in the sun. I guess that was my attempt to “draw a line in a sketchbook”, to get my creative juices flowing. But nothing has been done since.

I just took a picture of my clean slates ready to go!! (empty canvases) And a couple of the encaustic paintings I was messing around with.

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I decided to write this today because I want to express my thoughts on knowing you are an Artist in your heart and soul but not really showing results, which is pretty frustrating to keep it inside. I’m kicking myself in the butt to get started again.

Cheers to all you fellow artists out there, I hope this inspires you a little today, too!

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